Kaffir Boy Journal #3 On Violence

I saw someone being rubbed and then killed. This time it was not in Alexandra but in Pretoria during the broad daylight. People are so bold these days. That means that other crimes are committed like rape, killings, and robberies anytime of the day. It was so sad because it can happen to anyone if they careful. I even have to have at least someone with me when I come to P But this time I wasn’t as traumatized as the other time when I saw the other guy killed brutally by thugs. I guess it is maybe because I’m getting order or something. I mean I’m not saying that I didn’t have that much of a heart like last time; I’m just saying it wasn’t as painful. I’m pretty sure people are killed every single second day in and day out. I bet that most of the deaths are cruel. Murder even. I like adventure and when people get beaten up but only on Television, or just a game for fun. When it’s for real it’s much more scary, and intimidating, I guess you can say am weak but weak in the sense that I do care about people’s lives, and not just my own. I joined out of my gang because of the horrible things they did to people. Like the head guy of our gang beat up a guy to death over a girl who he later got pregnant and left her. To me that was and is the most selfish, irresponsible thing a guy can do, especially leaving the girl after he got her pregnant There was a time when there was a fighting match that I was in and then the most near death experience flashed before my eyes. One of the members in the group was hit in the eye by a rock and it nearly hit me in the face but I ducked. He eyes was squashed and blood spat out everywhere. From that day on, I told myself that I would never be in that group again. Anyway, just the things they do and did are and were extremely ridiculous and immature things I used to think were cool. Now I’ve realized how stupid I was to skip school and join them in their stupidity acts. Life is just amazing in the sense that people are crazy. So am I but I would never go as far as most people.